Love and stoplights can be cruel. - Sesame Street

I think the title says it all...it's amazing how profound it is...Sesame Street, you say??!! Amazing.
However, it is not love we shall be discussing here tonight, as the diagram above might show...but rather, girls...
I am a girl, (duh)...and as such, do so seek out the company of my kind...I am also attracted in a physical and sexual manner to my own gender, as much as that may complicate matters...and on Halloween of this past year was introduced to a beautiful, but married woman who I was immediately smitten with, by the name of Jolene. She had all the attributes I seek in a woman, fiery, intelligent, self-sufficient, oppinionated, long haired, curvy, wild, flirty, sweet smelling, the list goes on...she was also a wife and mother, and as far as I knew, straight...
I relegated her to the "fantasize about in the middle of the night" pile...I have become more than good at doing that after moving about unnoticed in straight society for many years...
We did not see eachother or speak again until she called me up to invite me to her New Year's Eve party. I agreed to attend. It was a blast and I met a lot of new people...she was as radiant as I had remembered and I felt blessed to get to see her again. I called her later New Year's Day to make sure she had survived the festivities and she asked me to come by that evening to hang out after the New Year's Football game on TV. Her best friend, Holly, and her husband were there, already quite drunk, when I got there. We sat around the table and drank and talked. We had a great time. As it got later, Holly left. Jolene and I got flirtier and flirtier. I found out that the attraction was mutual. In short, we slept together that night.
However, I also found out that she and her husband were in the process of splitting up...now, she is a completely different person...she is cold and aloof...I realize that her life is complicated, and I also realize that our lives are complicated in general, being that we both have families and responsibilities, and that nothing is as it seems...I am not looking for us to run a way into the sunset, nor do I expect us to make a happy ending together, but civility would be nice...
I guess I have come to see that she is a bit of a head case...but that is not new..I have yet to be with a woman that wasn't...that is where the equation above comes into play...every single woman I have ever cared about has been like this...all I have ever given is caring I want to help them...I just want to be a friend...that's all no commitments no expectations besides just being a decent person...one day I'll figure out why that's so hard to get back in return...AAUUGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!